These past few days have been incredible for me in a very deep and spiritual way. I have realized that although I that I had a good grip on my life I really was living a dream of sorts. I have so much work to do within myself. I had to totally surrender my whole being to God and just tell Him "You take everything that I have within me, everything that I am...just take it please". I have not felt this way in a very long time. I got so lukewarm and so used to my life that I forgot that every day should be a constant desire to do more. To give more, to pray more, to realize what God has given me and wants me to do. I got comfortable and that is a very very dangerous place to be. Right where the enemy wants you. I need to revamp my life, my focus, my mind, my soul, everything that I have I need to just hand it over to only one thing and that is giving glory to God always.




Every breath is a gift. Every thing in life is a blessing. I have to put my talents into practice. I have to take the wonderful things that God has given me as a person here on Earth and share them with as many people as I can. In my heart I know God loves me and I know he wants the best for me. I have to trust in Him and ONLY Him. I have misplaced my happiness on people, things, ideas, fantasies, you name it. I've put my sense of fulfillment in things that fade and not in God's infinite wisdom, love and mercy. We should be trying to better ourselves and others constantly. I need that freedom of the chains that hold me down. I am my worst enemy. I let the myself be told that I can't offer much and yet I have so much to offer through God's love and grace.





I love my faith, being Catholic. I love knowing that I have wonderful saints to look up to that I can follow and try to imitate to the best of my ability. I have a loving God, and loving Savior and the Holy Spirit to guide me through everything. What more could I want? I need nothing more. I so desperately need peace within. I need to feel that longing in my heart for God. That love and passion that fuels my soul. I have been putting out the flames in my own selfish and worldly needs. I need to rekindle that fire. I have to place my complete trust in God. I can only hope and pray that I will given the chance to do God's will here and that when I am face to face with my maker, my Father, that He will be pleased with what I have done with all the gifts He has given me. Right now....I haven't even scratched the surface and that thought in itself scares me to the core. The time is NOW, the moment is here...it's time to act and to love.

Maria ;)