Figuring It All Out

Why is it that right when you think you have an answer, a HUGE change occurs and it's back to the drawing board? :) I'm not complaining as I know that things don't stay the same and that life is anything but consistent. God works in mysterious ways. Slowly those mysteries unveil themselves and I find myself thinking. Sometimes I feel I am always just thinking. My issue is acting. Something about the word "action" that paralyzes me. I am a go getter but when it comes to making big decisions in my personal life, I just freeze. Go figure. :)

I feel as if things shift and things twist and turn so that I can catch up or get with the program yet I just watch the time go by. Guilt is something I need to overcome somehow in the sense that I feel guilty for not doing anything. I feel like I always have to be doing something. Rest is not an option. But when you really think about it, it IS an option and one we should take advantage of. Who am I think that my life is that busy or chaotic. Then comes pride. Wow. :)




Eventually I'll get it. Patience is a virtue indeed. I need to be patient with myself. Easier said than done I believe. But time is all I have and God willing, I will be able to figure it all out eventually or at least be OK with not being able to figure anything out. :) Ah, the complexities of life. So ridiculous, even blogging about it seems idiotic. ;)

God is good, and I know He is overseeing it all. I trust Him and only Him. There is nothing more I need but to trust in Him and give Love at all times to all who come my way.

Maria :)