Figuring It All Out

Why is it that right when you think you have an answer, a HUGE change occurs and it's back to the drawing board? :) I'm not complaining as I know that things don't stay the same and that life is anything but consistent. God works in mysterious ways. Slowly those mysteries unveil themselves and I find myself thinking. Sometimes I feel I am always just thinking. My issue is acting. Something about the word "action" that paralyzes me. I am a go getter but when it comes to making big decisions in my personal life, I just freeze. Go figure. :)

I feel as if things shift and things twist and turn so that I can catch up or get with the program yet I just watch the time go by. Guilt is something I need to overcome somehow in the sense that I feel guilty for not doing anything. I feel like I always have to be doing something. Rest is not an option. But when you really think about it, it IS an option and one we should take advantage of. Who am I think that my life is that busy or chaotic. Then comes pride. Wow. :)




Eventually I'll get it. Patience is a virtue indeed. I need to be patient with myself. Easier said than done I believe. But time is all I have and God willing, I will be able to figure it all out eventually or at least be OK with not being able to figure anything out. :) Ah, the complexities of life. So ridiculous, even blogging about it seems idiotic. ;)

God is good, and I know He is overseeing it all. I trust Him and only Him. There is nothing more I need but to trust in Him and give Love at all times to all who come my way.

Maria :)

All Aboard! Moving Along.......

It's funny how we sometimes just wait for things to happen and not lift a finger to MAKE it happen. I am guilty as charged. Today I realized that in my own mind I have fabricated a situation that I was sure would materialize if I were just patient. I was wrong. I admit it :) But in that realization I also found a sense of peace in knowing I no longer would continue on in this dream like state. That I need to act, move forward and see things for what they are.

I have been delaying on making a decision that I need to make for the past 8 years. I was waiting for all the pieces to fit to make that decision. Why do we wait for the "perfect" moment to do things? Why do we delay the decisions that are so important and find ways to procrastinate? Not all people do this, I know. But I do. ;)



My brother once gave me a very interesting piece of advice, something that has been in the back of my head for quite some time. and that was "get on the train and then look for your seat". In other words don't think about the seat you are going to sit in before you get on the train. The thing here is to DO IT..get on that train. If you don't then you will be left behind and that train will have left you there. In a very real way this made sense to me.

I need to get on my train. I need to move on. I'll worry about the seating once I'm on it. I know that God wants me to act. He wants me to just do something so He can work through me. I know that where I am at now is NOT the answer. I have been so incredibly blessed beyond belief these past few years and in I just feel that I need to do something through actions to show my gratitude for the gifts God has bestowed on me.

Life is good. Love is amazing. Inner Joy is precious. Knowing that God loves me is something that keeps me going day in and day out. I just need to move on. I need to get it together and with God's help and grace I KNOW I'll be fine.

Maria :)