Leave It To A Good Book.......

i have started to revisit a book I had read a few years back The Imitation of Christ by Thomas Kempis. I tell you, it is imperative to seriously look within our souls and pluck out our distorted attachments to creatures and things that we have in this world. It is not a bad thing to love others and serve them but to be fully involved with them and forget your own soul's salvation...now that is not good. I am redirecting my focus, my desires, my soul, my heart and most importantly..my will to that of God's will for me.

This book always has brought such a sense of logic and understanding that goes straight to my heart and soul. How can I even doubt what God is asking of me? Why the confusion? It is spelled out so clearly everywhere I turn to, in all I read and all I feel when I am deep prayer. I realize that our existence here on this planet is limited and short. We must focus on the higher meaning of it all-on the Kingdom of God. We must be looking to the salvation of our souls and those of others. Not that we have anything to do with that directly as we are just creatures here but through God's grace we can do it. I am just so incredibly blessed to be a Roman Catholic and have over 2000 years of tradition infused into my heart to guide me. I cannot see where I could go elsewhere and get this peace and reassurance. Ours is the one true faith.

Every day I offer my will to the Lord. I know NOT what I need or want. How can I even fix my mind to ask God for anything when I know nothing and deserve nothing? I rather Him guide me where He needs me not where I feel I need to go. My heart loves, it's alive, it wants to give to others. I cannot stop that, nor do I want to. There are enough creatures on this earth who do not believe, or want to feel, or share or give...so I am here for those who need it the most as God sees fit. Nothing is mine, I own nothing, I am nothing in myself. I have no control and no desire to have control all I want is God's will to be done in my life..for Him always.

God is our Loving Father but also just. I cannot let my pride get in the way of fulfilling His will. I must be able to stand before Him and let it be clear and evident that in my lifetime here I have done everything to do His will. There are no excuses to be had when you are being judged...no alibi's, etc. I pray for God' s mercy on all of my sins. For I have offended Him time and time again. I pray that our Blessed Virgin Mary and our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ may be on either side of me as my advocates when I face my Father. I depend on God's mercy and love. nothing or no one here on earth will save me. Only God's grace and Mercy on my eternal soul.


Maria :)